Yesterday was a day to remember...at least for me.

This is my journal entry. I do hope that you can see (and never forget again) that is able to do more than I could ever ask or imagine when I'm ready to admit that I can not do it...at all!

***context: i journal the Friday morning after a very hard day (Thursday). it was a day where the problems were too many and there was no way of getting around them happening again. i just wanted to call in sick or quit...i saw no other way out. it was pretty bleak because my eyes were off Jesus and on the trials. i'll skip writing about that Thursday, go past even the crying, and into after getting into the Word.

July 27, Friday
Psalm 110- Jesus! I know nothing! All these issues are beyond me! Beyond anything I can produce. I have no wisdom in it, I have no strength, no desire, no patience, no ability but what I have in You! In You is all I need, give all that to me because I don't even see how I can make it. Tell me what to do Lord and help me to do it!

Friday's events - Today, I waited on a miracle. Everything else (problems that would come up or of yesterday) didn't even phase me because God was going to do something. What that miracle was, I'm not sure since a hundred and one may have happened today. The biggest one, I believe, was the Lord giving me a day of joy despite all the problems. When problem came up, I was not afraid because God was up to something!
The first test was in the cakes that wouldn't cook - the oven ran out of gas. God fixed that and no one noticed! Then I finished my paperwork before work this morning (me being four days behind in it) despite how little sleep I have last night (up until midnight and up at 5am this morning). Then I sent a long email to **** with concerns and requests for problems that came up yesterday.
Another test came up when I needed to return quick from shopping but had "volunteered myself " for two extra trips that added themselves to my already busy trip. But God helped me (and I had no attitude about it - which is another way He helped me) to have those stops go quickly. Even providing a boy at the store to help me shop. I had 3 carts of food! That boy and another were such a help to me! That's the Lord!
One of the boys said that he enjoyed helping me shop. I knew that anything good that came out of me was of God and I rejoiced in how His character was seen in me to that boy. That's another miracle!
Mich helped me unload some of the food so I could get back quickly. Total blessing!
Eddy was able to help me pickup something I forgot for dinner. Total blessing also!
Despite Lis {my roommate} being sick, I haven't been effected by it yet. God has kept me going....
....Can I not see how there were many miracles done today!?! From my attitude change to helping me get everything done to overcoming obstacles to safety to blessings to joy today to help to do it all to health to patience to love to strength to even a working vehicle {something that has been a problem lately}. There are many more and I know it! These are the miracles that stick out to me today!


Its Saturday and now I look back at it and know that God just wanted me to admit that I needed everything from Him. He wanted me at the edge of myself to see that on Him is where my eyes need to be, where I need to find my strength, where there is real hope and power.

Oh, if only every day was like these...where I'm so overwhelmed with trials that I need to fall on my face before my one and only God!