Last Sunday, I shared my testimony in church...infront of all the church. And though I was terrified, I knew the Lord has done so much for me and just had to share that with those I worship with. This is what I shared.

Before I knew Jesus, I was one who willfully knew of Jesus' love on the cross and yet hate God anyway. I willfully chose drunkenness, immorality, slander, abusive speech, anger, and bitterness towards everyone but mostly Christians. Christians because I knew God cared about them and my real desire was to hurt God somehow by hurting them. I blamed God for my parents divorce which led to more pains in my life. I was filled with self...I was a walking dead person and longed for the pain of life to be over - suicidal.

But really it wasn't God's fault, since He is perfect. Its sin that hurt me so. Sin seeks to kill and destroy us. I now see sin for what it really is; gross and leading only to death. The sin I now see in me (mostly pride, which is the seldom seen killer) makes me sick because I know that for it Jesus suffered and died on the cross. Because of my own sin today, I suffer and so do those whom I love around me.

But God gave me the power to overcome that sin. I am dead to it and now hidden with Christ in God.

God broke me in 1998. My own sin brought me to a place far ways from anything I knew and God made me realize that what I had in life really wasn't so bad. God shattered all the lies I believed and so shattered who I was trying to be. Broken and admitting that my way was the wrong way, at the right time, God placed Christians in my life. Dec 1, 1998, I accept Jesus. And my life has never been the same.

Colossians 3:1-7
"Therefore if you have been raised up with Christ, keep seeking the things above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God. Set your mind on the things above, not on the things that are on earth. For you have died and your life is hidden with Christ in God. When Christ, who is our life, is revealed, then you also will be revealed with Him in glory.
Therefore consider the members of your earthly body as dead to immorality, impurity, passion, evil desire, and greed, which amounts to idolatry. For it is because of these things that the wrath of God will come on the sons of disobedience, and in them you also once walked, when you were living in them."