As I right this, I’m in JFK airport on my second cup of coffee. A lot of things have been going in my life so I’m looking forward to getting some rest when I reach Spec. I’m taking two flights and arriving around 2am. The last flight is iffy due to bad weather in NY so this trip is already taking a little longer than I’d hoped.

At the Nassau airport, I had planned on beginning to “vacation”. Its been almost a year and a half since I have so I figured that I “deserved it” – as you can tell the Lord is showing me right away the truth that if I got what I “deserved” I wouldn’t have the blessings and grace He has given me. I don’t “deserve” anything I receive.

Anyways, in my selfish flesh, I secretly hoped that I’d get a seat alone to myself and not really talk with anyone in the airports so I’d rest more…God had other plans. Thank You Lord for Your plans are better than my own!

As soon as I got my first cup of coffee, two Bahamian men began to…be Bahamian men. I’ve learned that the best way to throw them off guard is to actually treat them like a brother. It’s strange since they expected me to go away or flirt back. They had thought I was a tourist and were shocked to learn that I lived in South Beach (the “other end of the island”) so we just had a nice talk about the island.

Then, out of the blue, one the guys asked me what I thought about religion – totally the Lord reminding me that He is in control of all situation where I am to witness! We talked for a good half hour about religion verses relationship with God. They both were “churched”.

One of the men was right on with the truths of the bible yet still believed that he was saved by his own good deeds. The other guy leaned towards dreams and those being his truth. It was just a non-offensive talk where we’ll all ended agreeing that the bible is true. Inside, I was praying they would read the bible more than seeking truth elsewhere.

Its interesting how I wanted to take a “vacation” from witnessing – humiliating to admit it but that is what the Lord has been showing me lately. Other ways to say this type of sin could be: being lazy, my rights, and my comfort above God and others.

How often do I do that? How often do I take a vacation from being a Christian? That’s what is it, right? Can I really justify that being in my life, yet I do!

I do that when I’m tired form a long day with the kids and just want to crash at home, passing by others who may need help with what is keeping them late that day. I do it even when I have very little sleep, for whatever reason, then the next day, using it to justify a bad attitude or a “fleshly moment”. So wrong!

1 Peter 2:16 “act as free men, and do not use your freedom as a covering for evil, but use it as bondslaves of God.” Do I use my freedom to tune the world out for my own selfish needs?

Thoughts I ponder with the Lord in an airport.